jessa

in the interest of not typing everything again this is copied from an email to our therapist.

there is a 'new' one. she keeps laughing and saying she's not new, she's always been here but is just making herself known. its been a weird random day and we ended up in . driving home there were thoughts of tattoos and nose piercings, as when we pierced our nose (and the three times we did the belly button too) it was in . it seemed a bit hypomanicky but we weren't worried and then followed the thought and thinking and suddenly jessa introduced herself. she's probably most similar to core me, just more amplified and free spirited. probably more the me i would have been at her age if we'd been not did. she's either 21 or 23, she's going back and forth on that and we're not clear. 21 is what she has said the most but other times its 23 and she's done with college. she's very free spirited and maybe is even part of the core personality at times. she's more apt to go further off the path though because she missed out and wants what she missed.

this has been weird and it was a interesting drive home having the internal conversation. we were able to drive safely during it. she laughs like silverly bells. and it makes a little bit of sense as 21/23 is about the upper limit of how old we ever feel. she might also be one of the ones (along with callie) who is able to help maintain the bubbly happy cover we seem to show to so many people.

our therapist responded that this was an excellent discovery.

and we responded to that with: maybe, but its scary to know this means there are probably more i'm not aware of. i thought i'd figured them out and they were mapped and apparently thats not the case. then again given that you felt resistance or something yesterday that i didn't feel at all maybe i shouldn't be surprised by this, especially given the events of the last few weeks.